Friday, January 27, 2012

This Is My Story

This morning as I have been doing little jobs around the house, I have been humming nonstop an old gospel song I sang many times growing up in church. I wasn't aware I was doing it until I sat down and allowed my heart and mind to be still. I am NOT a singer....my other siblings have been blessed with that talent. I have never felt cheated that I can't sing. There is just something about singing a song out loud that you have known since you were 5 or 6 years old that makes one feel that they are on key. "Blessed Assurance" was that song for me today. Just read the words or sing them out loud:

Blessed assurance, Jesus is mine!
Oh, what a foretaste of glory divine!
Heir of salvation, purchase of God,
Born of His Spirit, washed in His blood.

This is my story, this is my song,
Praising my Savior all the day long;
This is my story, this is my song,
Praising my Savior all the day long.

There are two other beautiful verses that go with this song, but this is what I kept humming and singing all morning. Finally, I stopped and asked God..."What is it You want me to get from this?" I sang the words out loud several times and it became crystal clear.

Every happening in my life, from birth to this very moment, have become my story! Every single thing that has happened in this life, good or bad, is not a basis for shame or pride. It is what it is. My life. Every single rejection, heartbreak, joy, or achievement is what has written my story. I do not want to hide any part of my past or future in shame nor do I wish to walk in pride. So many things have happened in my life. People have come and gone. I have had devastating lows and incredible highs and the one constant has always been the same....my God. He has never rejected me! He is always there to rescue me. He knows my heart in ways that noone else ever will.

My Blessed Assurance in this life is the God that lives inside of me. I want and need only Him to write my story. Only then can I truly make it my song!